2018: Bloom

I was hoping to say that I came into 2018 with a clear vision of who I am and what I want, but that’s not happening and I’m ok with it.
I have an idea and that’s better than nothing.
There’s been a lot of deep thinking over here the last week or so.

Last year my word was focus and I thought the work of focusing on myself would be external but the majority of it was internal, which was good and I would like that to continue this year.

Here I am, 38yrs old and struggling to adult properly. I know everyone has their own path, but I feel so far behind my peers in most areas of adulthood.
I feel stuck in ‘start over’ mode and I’m done with it.

My word for 2018 is BLOOM.

I realize that in order to fully bloom, I need to take my walls down and be more vulnerable.
I can’t keep shutting people and experiences out because I’m afraid of getting hurt, or because I give in to the voice of insecurity. I said yes to opportunities and possibilities last year and even though it was a little scary, those experiences were ultimately a good thing.

I want more of what makes me happy and will help me grow, even if it makes me nervous or uncomfortable.
I will always be stuck if I remain unwilling to take the risk.

It’s time to come off autopilot and get back to being intentional about our daily life.
I want to pick up my camera and remember what it feels like to enjoy photographing our everyday.

I used to find so much joy and happiness in the little things. My kids are growing quickly and lately I feel like I’m missing it because I’m not allowing myself to be fully present.

More accepting of what is and letting go of what I can’t change.

No more waiting for the perfect moment because I’ll be waiting forever, and life is short.

Technology is great and I enjoy connecting with people across the social networks, but I am craving more face to face interaction and connection.

More adventures with my kids no matter the season.
Doesn’t always have to be outside.

Daily journaling and a gratitude list.

Reminding myself to breathe and take it one day at a time.

Those are some of my personal and professional goals for this year.
I purchased a new planner and I’m hoping it will help with better time management and achieving my goals.

I hope this year is full of all kinds of amazing for all of us!